Missing the Miracle of the Loaves

For they considered not the miracle of the loaves: for their heart was hardened. 

Mark 6:52 (KJV)

Is my heart hardened? Do I understand? Am I missing it?

God has done many miraculous and awe-inspiring things right before my eyes, but do I take them to heart? Do I sit and revel in the marvelous of what God has done? Because if not, I miss it. I miss the miracle of the loaves. And ultimately, I miss God.

Just to give you some frame of reference, we’re in Mark chapter 6 where Jesus has just fed five thousand men with only five loaves of bread.  It’s a story that if you’ve grown up in church, you’ve probably heard it 100 times… at least. But don’t miss the significance, because that’s exactly what the disciples did.

Jesus walks on water and calms a storm less than 24 hours after the whole feeding five thousand people incident, and the disciples are STILL completely astonished by what Jesus can do. Almost every translation describes the disciples in this way, “for their hearts were hardened.”  It’s as if they still did not believe Jesus was who he said he was, regardless of the miracles they had witnessed. I personally like the way the NASB puts it, “Then He got into the boat with them and the wind stopped; and they were utterly astonished, for they had not gained any insight from the incident of the loaves, but their heart was hardened.”

Hardened- from the Greek word “poroo” – to petrify; to render stupid or callous

Insensitive, deaden, stiffen

They. had not. gained. any. insight. Their hearts were hardened and their mind was closed.

I don’t want to be “utterly astonished” that God can do something. I want to revel in the belief that from what I’ve seen Him do, there is still more to discover. I want to sit on the miracles that he HAS done and believe for more. I don’t want to be like the disciples by lacking insight and understanding of God’s power. I don’t want my heart to be hardened. To be blind. To be insensitive. To miss HIM.

“Aware of their discussion, Jesus asked them: ‘Why are you talking about having no bread? Do you still not see or understand? Are your hearts hardened? Do you have eyes but fail to see, and ears but fail to hear? Don’t you remember? When I broke the five loaves for five thousand... Do you still not understand?’”

Mark 8:17-21

For He is capable of ALL things, whether we choose to take it to heart or not.

All my love,

Paige

You Are There

I wrote this poem two months ago sitting on the floor in the Neuro intensive care unit of a hospital while awaiting test results regarding my father-in-law's stroke. After dealing with two deaths less than a month before, I was left reeling with too many emotions. Figuring out how to comfort and support my heartbroken husband of only four months, and struggling with my own fears and doubts in the situation, I felt God pressing me to write this. I hope it speaks comfort to you, no matter where you're at.
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In the pain of the day
and the silence of the night
You are there

In my moments of weakness
and my failing of strength
You are there

In my lack of understanding
and my foolish impatience
You are there

In the fears that overwhelm
and when peace feels out of reach
You are there

In the laughter of children
and our praise sung loud
You are there

In the tears of a mother
and the longings of a father
You are there

In my silent prayers
and my lack of words
You are there

In the sweetness of my husband's love
and the acceptance of my family
You are there

In my cries of frustration
and the anger that plagues me
You are there

In the moments of my sin
and my decisions of disobedience
You are there

When I'm disciplined out of love
and directed for greater good
You are there

When the world seems too much
and life feels stuck
You are there

You are there in every moment
You are there in every trial
You are there when I'm lonely
You are there when I can't stand
You are there when I fall
You are there when I get up again
Your love never leaves me, it never fails me, it never lets go


All my love,

Paige


"...and they shall call his name IMMANUEL, which means 'GOD WITH US'."
Matthew 1:23

My Middle C

"When Lloyd Douglas, author of The Robe and other novels, attended college, he lived in a boardinghouse. A retired, wheelchair-bound music professor resided on the first floor. Each morning Douglas would stick his head in the door of the teacher's apartment and ask the same question, 'Well, what's the good news?' The old man would pick up his tuning fork, tap it on the side of the wheelchair, and say, 'That's middle C! It was middle C yesterday; it will be middle C tomorrow; it will be middle C a thousand years from now. The tenor upstairs sings flat. The piano across the hall is out of tune, but, my friend, that is middle C.'

You and I need a middle C. Haven't you had enough change in your life? Relationships change. Health changes. The weather changes. But the Yahweh who ruled the earth last night is the same Yahweh who rules it today. Same convictions. Same plan. Same mood. Same love. He never changes. You can no more alter God than a pebble can alter the rhythm of the Pacific. Yahweh is our middle C. A still point in a turning world."      -Traveling Light

Stephen and I are in a rough season where family, health, jobs and living situations are all up in the air. They have been constantly changing and shifting in the past three months that it seems like the moment we finally pop up for air, the waves overcome us, pulling us down again. Thankfully, we have an anchor, a middle C, to hold on to and we are not at the mercy of the waves.

I have been meditating on and thinking of the names and characteristics of God a lot throughout this season. My eyes fixed on who God is... not on the constant waves of change surrounding us.

Here is some of my list. God is...
Truth. Holy. Righteousness. Pure. ALWAYS good. Faithful. Loving. Kind. Compassionate. Just. Creator. Adonai. The Name above all names. Eternal. All-Sufficient. Everlasting. Provider. the God who sees me. Beautiful. Worthy of praise. Slow to anger. Merciful. Gracious. Humble. Strong. Joyful. Savior.

He is my middle C. Unchanging. Unwavering. Constant. Sure. All of those things listed above, he will be them today, tomorrow, and twenty years from now. I can be certain in the uncertainty.



All my love,

Paige

New Look

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Have a happy Friday!


All my love,

Paige